What has my life been since my last entry?

Pretty much the same. A little better if you push it.

Watching everyone advancing into their careers, while I spend my morning hours dreading work, is just too painful in so many ways. I sometimes ask myself how I ended up with a slow progressing career. I mean, before all this, I was in a pretty good position. But, you know, I got curious for what’s in store for me outside. Don’t get me wrong – I learned so much for exploring other opportunities beyond the glorious fences of IBM. It’s just that I would’ve been in a better level if I stayed with my 1st company; my roots would’ve crawled deeper and cashflow would’ve been a flashflood. If only my 28 yo self paid me a visit in 2015 so i wouldn’t have to make such rash decisions of submitting my resignation letter.

I had thoughts of coming back, and those times, were in fact, the toughest. I want to, and at the same time, don’t. It’s not like there’s a slightest chance for me to come back, but you know, I want to just wake up one morning, and I will drive myself to Technohub with my TP in my bag, and my brain up to date to whatever i’ve missed the last coupla years. Obviously it’s no way gonna come true.

In any case, I am slowly working it out – to get over my loses and climb back up, as soon as freaking possible.



2017 has been pretty rough for me – a few wins to celebrate, but quite a number of failures to mourn about. Every year I always tell myself to bounce back and to get onesself improve, and every single year I always end up shoving what I said down my throat. There are so many reasons why I fail, mostly external and physical limitations. Nonetheless, I make the most out of what I get. I have no choice.

I dream of flying out of this country for good. Lets face it, life is better in Caucasian populated countries. I want better opportunities that will drive my independence. At my current state, I can’t even save up money for small gadgets. Leaving IBM is kind of my biggest life regret yet. If I stayed, I probably would’ve been 2 steps up the ladder already. Oh well, things like this, I now charge to experience.

While writing this, I suddenly realized that this year wasn’t so bad. I mean, in April, I had a good comeback. Not the fuck-how-u-do-dat comeback, but kind of a hey-welcome-to-where-you-left-off. That, I’m thankful for.

New work

So on Monday, it’ll be my first day at my new work. Another jungle to explore; new employees to discover, adapt to, and make friends with. I’m fairly excited since it’s an upgrade from my previous one. Plus, I’m going back to the industry I came from so I think I  more or less have the advantage in getting things right early on.

Why did I leave my previous job? I don’t think I am supposed to disclose, but to simple and civil terms, opportunity just opened its door for me. Also, I’m not getting any younger. I need to get an upgrade that could pay for my upgraded lifestyle – of course, I had to reach my goal of getting my own car and probably my own pad by 30. I’m 3 years away so I need to catch up very quick. 🙂

Anyway, I hope I landed the perfect fit job already. Cheers!

Would you hate me if I said I prayed for Summer to end?

No apologies coming. I am so frustrated with this terrible heat. News has it that the heat factor raised up to 44*C yesterday, which, in my criteria, wasn’t humanly tolerable. I wonder how some of the construction workers who were fixing the sewers yesterday were able to stay under the 1:00pm sun, doing extreme physical work. I, on the other hand, had been complaining on social media, sitting relatively comfortable on my computer chair, getting all the air from the fan and AC.

But this isn’t about me and my “privileged” life rants. It is a collective feedback about this heat. I am betting my April salary that I am not alone in this hateful retaliation against Summer. haha. Whatever. Please fast forward to when it’s much cooler; cool enough to wear a shirt and not a tank top inside the house.



Tomorrow marks my 6th month in GABC. I’m officially a regular employee by tomorrow, although it has not been set on paper yet. I was assured that the papers don’t normally come on time, and it’s a normal thing in the company. I’m okay with the delay and all, it’s just that I don’t know how I feel about the whole regularization thing. I guess I am happy about it, because I am finally getting my benefits: health card, shopping discount, etc. Yet, I am having second thoughts about staying. I don’t know

Not sure how to reason out with this feeling. In my previous job I never went through this kind of thing. It’s probably not the job, cuz work’s pretty fun so far. I am still excited to go to work every morning. I get to enjoy the holidays. It’s just that I am not sure.

It’s probably a quarter life crisis thing, although I don’t really want to join the bandwagon and blame it on a hypothetical life phase. I hope it goes away soon.

New Job!


I confirmed last Friday to GABC HR that I will be accepting the job offer. After some months of taking numerous interviews, sending CVs, and intense prayers, I finally landed a job that is not BPO! No more night shifts and stressful, sleepless nights! For those of you who don’t know, I had my last day with IBM in April, primarily because of the work shift. I was actually planning about the separation since September, 2014, but I was in a good team and I handled very good clients that parting made it difficult. Plus, I had a great manager, and he was great in making me feel important. Here’s a photo of my last day at work (this was 3 months ago – sorry I’m not a daily blogger haha)


All smiles!

Anyway, it was really difficult to shift industries. I guess HR folks screen people by the specific skills they are looking for. Like for example – I had good people and client management skills, but when I applied for an inventory position, they were looking for someone who has inventory management background. Surely I’ve never done such in IBM. Same with the different jobs that I applied for – mostly in retail. Even if I was one of the top performers in my previous company, I felt that it was irrelevant for them. So as time went by, I narrowed down my options, to the point that I questioned myself if I should go back to BPO. My goals were shaken for a second, but then I realized it would be beneficial for long term if I would shift as early as now. So I kept on searching, took on interviews, spent money on gas, killed time waiting patiently for time insensitive interviewers, and voila. Now I am about to embark a new journey in the retail industry!

Thank God for this opportunity and I hope I grow more in this line of work.

Happy Pride!


So a friend from the US came to visit Manila, and what other way for us to celebrate but with a couple of Tequila and Jager bottles in our happy place – O-bar. Last night was definitely a night to beat. Everyone was drunk (except me, of course) and wild. My friends were probably holding a contest for most number of make out sessions, and honestly, I’m not sure who won. Me? I acted as a shipper and a wingman, aside from babysitting and keeping my friends from doing trouble. Yes, I’m a very good friend. Plus, I didn’t go there for the make out sessions, but for the DRAG SHOW which was divine! They had new production numbers that I haven’t seen before. And oh, they finally played a bunch of Britney Spears songs!! I knew they were saving the best for special occasions haha.

Obar party

Well anyway, it was a night to remember and I can’t wait to go there again! Happy Pride! xx